Everybody is getting a bit frustrated because the meditation
is more difficult than what people expected it would be. The main difficulty is
to stay focused when we don’t experience success. A lot of people, I am one of
them, have a lot of pain during the meditation sessions. The pain can have a
lot of reasons such as back pain because we are not used to sitting up as
straight as we have to during meditation. Another reason for the pain is
because we are sitting on the floor for a prolonged period of time, our legs
are not used to the floor and they start to hurt. Sitting for a long time and
concentrating is really not what most of us have done so far. Meditation is not
only mentally very challenging but also physically. On top of the pain, it also
seems that we are not getting anything out of the meditation; most people
including myself haven’t had a successful experience therefore I am wondering
where my motivation to keep going should come from.
Our meditation teacher keeps emphasizing that we have to be
patient. We will get there at some point. He barely answers any questions that
we have because he doesn’t want to lose time. According to him, the more we
practice the faster we will be able to enjoy the benefits of meditation. I am
trying to truly understand his point but it is really hard to stick to something
that is causing me pain, which I don’t understand and that doesn’t give me any
benefit. However, since I am here I really can’t do anything else, I just try
my best.
At the beginning of the course, all of us have received a
little booklet with teachings of Buddhism as well as meditation guidelines. I
just recently discovered them and I thought they are very helpful. Tibetan
Buddhism differentiates between two types of meditation, one is a stabilizing
meditation and the other one is an analytical meditation. A stabilizing
meditation is what people usually associate with meditation, which is focusing
on one object for as long as one wishes while experiencing bliss, clarity and
peace.
The more interesting meditation is the analytical meditation
because we meditate on our problems in order to truly understand them. On the
root of our problems are mistaken concepts about reality. In order to free
ourselves from them, we first have to identity them and transform them by using
analytical meditation. Later, having developed those new insights we focus on
them with single-pointedness, by using stabilizing meditation, to become
thoroughly and deeply familiar with them. In other words, we use both meditation
techniques to attain real, lasting transformation of the mind.
After having read about the difference of those two
meditation types, I realized that maybe it is possible to treat mental illness
with simply meditation after all. I am not saying it is easy but I am pretty
sure that it is possible with lots and lots of effort, dedication and a strong
belief in it.
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